When people look at me, they don’t necessarily see an introvert. The bright clothes, coloured hair and numerous tattoos give people the impression of a social butterfly whose confidence is revealed through personal style.
This is not the case. The people that know me well, know that all of these things are a mask. I mean, yes, they’re my style, and I love my style, but they also give me a mask; something to hide how socially inept I really am.
I remember a while ago, before Covid, I attended the funeral of a lovely lady from the…
I have made the decision to do Nanowrimo again this year, and I am determined to win this time. I’ve had a few setbacks this year, which has left me very much below the ‘on par’ word count that I should be at, but I’m not too worried, because I have a lot of writing to do and that simply excites me.
ANXIETY SAYS NO
The thing is, though, that my anxiety doesn’t agree and leaves me feeling freaked out about the number of words I must hit. Well, this year, I refuse to let my anxiety win, when it…
We’ve all heard those words, or something of the same ilk, so many times. It sounds like one of the worst types of cliché, but is there actually some truth in it?
I was never any good at any kind of PE. I was overweight, and not in the least bit physically fit. In fact, I spent most of the night before a school PE lesson, trying to come up with ideas to get me out of doing it. And I spent most of the actual lessons, warming the bench.
The thing is that at my school, the…
I’ve been writing since before I can remember. It’s not just a hobby or a pastime to me; it’s a way of life. There are days when I haven’t written anything, because my depression has been too bad, but lately, I have noticed that on these days, I tend to feel even worse. On these days, I feel like I have not only not written, but that I have failed myself.
WRITING SETS ME FREE
The truth is that writing sets me free. I know it sounds crazy, but it’s the truth. I love writing; I am a wordsmith. I…
I think weight and body image is something that most people struggle with in their lives unless you’re one of those lucky b!tches that were just born skinny (I am not one of those people).
I have spent most of my life overweight. I have tried the fad diets and started to exercise more times than I care to remember, only to give up when the muscle aches start.
Each time, I promise myself that things will be different and that I will lose the weight, but the truth is that I was going about it all the wrong way…
I’ve been toying with the idea of doing nanowrimo again this year. I’ve been wondering whether or not to commit…
I’ve read the rules. I’ve looked at the logistics. I’ve explored possible ideas. But so far, I can’t commit myself to writing only a brand new novel, from scratch. I’ve been struggling with writing lately. My brain sort of freezes and won’t let me move on.
IT’S OKAY TO BREAK THE RULES
The thing is, I was talking to one of my best friends, who also knows the struggle of writing, and I have made the decision to work on…
We live in an increasingly digital world, where even our friendships are becoming digitised. Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Snapchat… these platforms all belong to a digital subgroup, known as “social media”.
Now, I’m not knocking social media. I met my best friend on Facebook, and, given my anxiety and depression, if I’m honest, without social media, I probably wouldn’t speak to anyone for days at a time.
A REPLACEMENT FOR REAL LIFE
The thing is, lately, looking at my social media feeds, and all of the hashtags and trending topics, it struck me. …
There are times in your life as a writer, when you have to make some tough decisions. I hate those times. I’m bad enough at finishing pieces, because I get too attached to my characters and don’t want to step out of the story, but these times come to us all.
KILLING OFF CHARACTERS
Of course, I’m talking about when you have to make the decision to kill off one of your characters. Now, I’m not really talking about those nice, peaceful deaths, where the character has lived a long life, and then just falls asleep. …
I’ve had my fair share of ‘endings’ this year. I’ve cried; I’ve mourned; I’ve curled up into a ball, hoping that if I make myself small enough, I might just disappear altogether.
This is what can happen when we’re faced with endings. They can be painful, challenging, and they can out and out SUCK!
A PERFECT STORM
That, coupled with depression, can create a perfect storm. I was stuck in that storm for some time. Some days, I still am, but now, I can start to see the sun’s rays peeking through the clouds.
The light at the end of…
Over the last week, I seem have struggled massively with sleeping. The UK is experiencing a heatwave, and it’s making it so difficult to get comfortable enough to go to sleep.
The thing is, all this is well and good, and I’m not saying that I don’t enjoy it, because I do, but it means that certain things have to be sacrificed, and this week, I definitely paid the price for these sacrifices.
As an introvert, while I like spending time with people, it is also mandatory that I have some alone time, where I can just be me…